Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep

I was just notified that I have been listed as a professional photographer for the organization Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep, which is an infant bereavement photography charity. I really struggled with the decision to apply for this organization - not because I didn't want to give my services, but because I wasn't sure that I'd be able to keep my emotions under control enough to actually photograph it. I certainly wasn't able to do it while I was pregnant (just the thought of running out of cream cheese for my morning bagel was enough to send me into tears) or right after Nolan was born. But, now that Nolan is almost 3 months old, my emotions are about as level as they are going to get (I won't use the word normal because I'm not sure I'll ever really be normal again after becoming a mom - I mean, how normal is it to practically wet my pants everytime I see a school bus to point out to my toddlers while I drive them to school because they get so happy when they see one:). So, I applied and was happy to hear that they accepted me. I'm dreading actually receiving a phone call requesting me to come to the hospital for this reason, but I feel that every parent should have beautiful photos of their children, regardless of how short of a time they spend on this earth.